Kundalini And Me

For a very long time, I considered that any type of yoga was not for me. I tried a few times a class here and there but none spoke to me. None. So I gave up trying and I ended up falling in love with Qi-Gong, instead, something more aligned with me. And for years I forgot about yoga.

Photo: Medicina da Consciência. And I am on it.☺️

A few years ago, maybe 3 or 4, I decided to give yoga another try to see if there was any change on that. I don’t remember exactly why, though. Maybe a need to add extra exercise to my life? Anyways, I went for a Restorative Yoga with Reiki class because Reiki was something I have tried before and loved and guess what? I loved it. So much that I kept on practicing every week and even decided to try other types of Yoga to see if I like them as much as well. Yoga was for me, after all. And Kundalini was one of the types of yoga I decided to try.

However, the first class I attended I did not like it at all. And for 1 year I forgot about Kundalini. Until one day, when I was back to New York City I decided to try it again. And boom! I totally feel in love with. My instructor at Awakening in Greenpoint, Zita Harkaran had such an enthusiasm and a glow that I wanted to have that too. Plus, I felt so good… It was like something had lighted me up inside. So, I attended her class every week for the whole time I stayed in New York. When I returned to Rio de Janeiro, unfortunately I could not find any Kundalini classes and lost a bit the motivation to continue. But started reading about it.

At least that.

Because of my estrogen shortage and its side effects (vaginal dryness, low libido, underwhelming orgasms in particular) due to my menopausal state, in the back of my head, there was this voice whispering to me to pursue Kundalini because it could be a good addition to my recovery routine since Kundalini works with the Kundalini energy which is our holy sexual energy. A precious extra help to solve one of the remained things not yet solved, so I thought. And for that I should embrace it and practice more often to get the benefits.

Then last year, when I returned for my 3 months in New York City I decided to look for a place where I could practice more often. I would obviously keep attending Zita’s class cause she is such an inspiring teacher and I love her classes. And googling Kundalini near me I found a studio: Kundalini Yoga East. There they have this promo: you pay $39 and attend as many classes as you like for 30 days. Irresistible, right?

Photo: Kundalini Yoga East. How I miss the after class Yogi Tea chat…

Then I started my 30 Kundalini days. Okay, I did not attend a class every single day but at least 5 or 6 days a week, I did. And from the very first class I was in love. Although it was really hard. The postures, the practice and the fact that back then I was completely out of shape due to my knee injury… It was hard. And my body got all sore for maybe two weeks til I got used to exercising again. But it was a good pain.

Anyways, the experience was so powerful and insightful that I got hooked. In the best way. I don’t know if my experience was that strong due Kundalini itself or a combination of Kundalini and my level 2 Reiki (that I had completed the day before my first Kundalini day). In any case, it was amazing. I am so grateful for it…

So many good things happened to me after I started practicing it. To begin with, I got my very own Kundalini glow. During my first week, I felt as if my Crown Chakra had became wider with a brighter light. (I also got a headache that went away pretty soon, so it was not all good). At the end of the first week on a Friday class some of my estrogen shortage side effects went away. I am not overstating. It did. Just like that.

Okay, for years I have been working with my sexual energy or Kundalini energy as you rather call it due to my Qi-Gong practice since it is the same energy used. Maybe that is why was that fast for me. But my Kundalini practice also helped with other issues that I was trying to deal with, with no luck, such as: going back to the dating game (after a long time not being able to actually make it happen, I did and for my surprise all went pretty smooth), thawing my heart ( I even ended up falling in love after a long time), becoming more vocal after being way too monosyllabic… And the icing on the cake: for the first time I felt I belonged to and that I was a spiritual person. My whole life I practice spiritual things like Qi-Gong, Meditation, Tai Chi and even Yoga but had never felt myself as a spiritual being. With Kundalini, I did. I guess that is what it is called Kundalini Awakening.

After my 30 Kundalini days, I kept up attending classes as usual. I loved so much to just give up. I even went to a White Tantric Yoga event in NY where we have to hold a posture for 30 or 60 minutes throughout a whole day. And it was an amazing experience. And not as hard as I taught it would be. Right after it I felt lighter. They say you would feel the difference some days later, but for me, that was it. I will definitely attend another one when I have the chance.

Since then I have been practicing Kundalini in regular basis. Even now that I am back to Rio. I practice on my own (everyday, by the way) and when I can, I attend a local studio that I love very much, Medicina da Consciência. Yep, I finally found a place here. I still have a lot more to accomplish and overcome as a B12 deficient, Menopausal and Messed Up Woman, but I am so grateful to have found a practice that I can feel it is helping me to go through all of those things…

Sat Nam!

It is Never Too Late To Dream a New Dream

Today I was not going to write any post cause I was already tired and it is way too hot (around 110 F in Rio) to do anything else other than have an ice cream. But then I came across this quote and here I am.

“You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.”

To have a dream is something that speaks deeply to me. And it does because some loooong time ago I lost touch with my own dreams. Don’t know where they went. One day they simply evaporated and for a while I didn’t even notice it. And ladies, how dull can be a life without dreams… right?

Anyways, once the dream ball dropped and I realized I had no dreams to pursue I tried to access my database to check my dreams as a kid or as a teenager because back then, obviously, I had dreams and maybe I could use them, who knows? That is why I went back to Fashion School (at F.I.T. in New York City) to take a few Styling classes. See, when I was a teenager I wanted to be the new Anna Wintour or an editorial stylist or work in a magazine. Although most of the time it was fun to attend the classes, deep inside I knew those were not my dreams anymore. I don’t regret taking those classes at all, cause it took me to New York and there I finally reengaged in life, found new passions like Reiki and Kundalini Yoga among other things. Totally worth it. And by that time was when I realized that maybe I need to go after a new dream.

Great! But here is a catch: I still don’t know what my dream is. And maybe I don’t because I haven’t found my bliss. Or maybe I have but till now I still feel as if I am not good enough to pursue it. Because every time I think about going for it, I procrastinate. Or I hyperventilate.

Anyways, trying to reconnect with my dreams, having this purpose and being opened to it, is what put me back on my own track. Cause, honestly, life without a dream is way too flat, it is not living, it is only surviving. When you loose something that important as I did, it is impossible not to realize how vital this is. Don’t wait till you loose yours to appreciate and cherish it.

But if you do, be aware that you can always dream a new dream. At any age. It is up to you to reconnect with your own self and find that out. It may take a while but the pursuing trip per se can end up lighting up your life.